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The following pages are from the notebooks of Alan Harkness........
" This was called the great world-tragedy, the primordial drama: that the deity descended into the material world and was buried therein, in order to rise again within man." R.S. Berlin 1905
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The following is a typed (and unsourced) inclusion in the notebook.
Exercises in Spiritual Development
(General demands to which one must set or apply oneself)
First Exercise - Control of Thinking
The first condition is the acquirement of a perfectly clear thinking. To this purpose one must - if only for a short time in the day, some five minutes, (the longer and oftener the better) free oneself from the will-o-wisp nature of thought. One must become master of one's thought world. Oine is not master if outer conditions, profession, some tradition, social conditions, yes even belonging to a certain race, if day and season determine one's thoughts and the carrying out of them. So, through this exercise one must, with wholly free will, empty the soul of the ordinary every day thought flow, and out of one's own initiative urge a thought into the centre of the soul. It need not be a dominant or interesting thought; what is to be attained in an occult respect is even better attained when one in the beginning endeavours to choose as uninteresting a thought as possible. Thereby the self-active force of the thought becomes more stimulated; while with an interesting thought the interest carries on the thought itself. One says to oneself: I start out with a thought (e.g. a pin) and link up with it, through my own initiative, all that which can reasonably be connected with it; through which fthe first thought is obliged always to remain alive before the soul. This exercise is to be pracised daily for a month. One can take a new thought daily or keep to the same one for several days. After each exercise one tries to bring to the full consciousness the inner feeling or firminess and security, which with subtle attention one will soon observe in the soul. One so concludes this exercise by thinking of one's head and the spinal chord down in the middle of the back, in such a way as if one would let each feeling of firmness pour into this part of the body.
Second exercise - Control of Action
When one has exercised for about a month in this manner, a second demand steps in. One tries to invent any action which in the ordinary course of life up to the present has quite definitely not been taken up before. Now one performs this self chosen exercise as a duty every day. It is very good to choose an action which can be performed every day for as long a space of time as possible. Again it is better when one begins with an unimportant action to which one can, so to say, force oneself (e.g. one undertakes at a certain time of day everyday to water a plant, or look at the sky and the clouds in the same direction or to observe an object.) After a time a second such action should enter therein, after a time a third and so on, so manys as one can pursue with the maintainance of all one's duties. This exerise should again last a month but one shouldas much as one can during this second month also occupy oneself with the first month's exercise. But the second month's exercise should come first, and it must never be interrupted even for one day! All the same the first exercise and its effect must not be lost sight of, otherwise one will soon observe how the fruits of the first month are lost and the old backslide of 'uncontrollable thoughts' begins again. Above all one must take care that these fruits, once won must not be lost again. If one has produced through the second exercise a such-like executed initiative-action, so will one, with subtle attention, become conscious of a feeling of an inner activity impulse within the soul and one will soon pour, as it were, this feeling so into one's body that one lets it stream from the head down into the heart.
Third Exercise - Equanimity
In the third month, should be pushed into the centre of life, as a new exercise, the cultivation of a certain equanimity - as opposed to fluctuation between joy and sorrow, pleasure and pain; the exalting as high as heaven and grieving to death should with consciousness be replaced by an equable mood. One takes care that no joy runs away with one, no pain smites one to the ground, that no experience rends one with immoderate anger and vexation; no situation puts one out of countenance; that no expectation fills one either with anxiousness or joy and so on. One need not fear that such an exercise makes one empty and lacking in the fullness of life. One will rather observe much more in place of this that what proceeds from the exercise brings forth refined qualities. Above all one feels with subtle awareness one day, an inner peace; also one pours this subtle feeling into one's body in that one consciously lets it flow from the heart to the hands, feet and finally the head. This naturally cannot be taken after each single exercise for one has in truth not to do with one single exercise but with a continual awareness of one's inner life. But one must, at least once in the day, call before the soul this inner peace and then undertake the exercise of the streaming out from the head to the hands and feet.
Fourth Exercise - Positiveness/Seeking Good
In the fourth month one undertakes a new exercise which may be called Positiveness. This consists in seeking out continually the existing Good, Beautiful and Excellent in all experiences, natures and things. This quality in respect to the activity of the soul is best characterised by the Persian legend of Christ Jesus and the dead dog. If the esoteric student does this exercise he will soon observe that under cover of ugliness a hidden beauty exists; that even in a criminal lies veiled a hidden goodness, that in a lunatic somehow the divine lies hidden. This exercise is connected with that which one calls forbearance from criticism. Now, one must not comprehend it in such a way that one would call black white or white, black. But there is a difference between a judgement which proceeds merely from one's own personality and its sympathies and antipathies and a judgement which proceeds from the point of view of lovingly putting oneself in the place of a foreign being or stranger and without a single criticism, questioning oneself: How does this thing or being come to this, so to be or so to act? Then one comes to it gradually and quite of oneself to strive to help the imperfect instead of merely criicising, blaming or setting in order. The objection that life conditions of many people require them to criticise, blame or judge cannot be made here. There are, even many conditions present which make it impossible to carry out an occult training as here indicated, in any measure of fruitfulness. But here one should not impatiently wish all the same to make progress which can only be made under certain conditions. He who during a month can consciously place positivity in all his experiences will, little by little, observe a feeling in his inner being as if his skin were porous from all sides and his soul open itself to all secret and subtle events in the surroundings which before had completely escaped his notice. Therefore the point is to combat existing inattentiveness in man toward such subtle things. If one has filled this described feeling of the soul with a kind of beatitude then one so tries to draw his feeling towards the heart in thoughts and from there to let it stream into the eyes and out into space beyond and around the human being. Through this one grows, as it were, above one's self. One learns to observe a piece of one's surroundings as one observes a part of oneself that contains a quite intimate relation to the surroundings. A great deal of concentration is necessary for this exercise and above all things a recognition of the fact that all that is emotional, passionate and affected works destructively against the indicated mood.
Fifth Exercise - Impartiality towards what Life gives
In the fifth month then one tries to cultivate in oneself the feeling of meeting in an entirely unprejudiced manner, every new phenomenon. The esoteric student must completely break with man's ordinary attitude toward what comes to his hearing or to an occurence about which he then says: 'I have never heard that or seen that; I heard otherwise; I do not believe it.' The student must be ever ready to accept a perfectly new experience even when it contradicts his former experiences. For, all which hitherto he has recognised as legitimate; what till now has appeared to him as impossible - must not fetter him so that he be hindered in his reception of a new truth. The esoteric student must ever hold open the door for the belief that his hitherto existing knowledge can always experience a widening. He who in the fifth month is so minded to direct his attention on it will o
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Penitence
On the prairie, on the shore
By the long marshes where there are only birds,
On the desert where only light moves
There will be a city I shall bring it with me –
There will be also the man at the bar
Fumbled up in brown coats
And the butts of cigars And banging on the counter with the tumbler
And the head of the taxi man turning “Where to?” in the slush of the snow.
I shall bring this night also
Wherever I go.
Or shall I, in the dusk of the sun
At the cross between night and day
When the powerful flames spread up
And the great shining darkness begins And the whole hymn is sung
And the sky is washed with all the colours
And the coming of the stars…
Shall I send up these penitent wretches
These cripples on crutches
These sad, lost people, send them up
Out of my eyes when sight is given to me
Out of my limbs when they are whole?
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The earth woke up again
– The earth woke up again –
You were waiting in a taxi stemmed by the traffic
headed off and back and on
and those who called you did not know your name
You answered – and your face was in the glass,
and the earth died under the stones
and there were many words and many words
and your heart beat in the taxi
impatient to be dead, to sleep again
after the torment of continuance
the chain of house to house
across the dead scowl of the city
the grin……
Spring, summer, winter, falling
without one fruit, one leaf returning
- you still alive in the dead earth -
The earth woke up again…
Hark at the noise all night
the cicadas
hark how it swells and swells and blooms
root under root up-piercing
the ferny fringed bladed arrowing
sharp and spreading billowed tapering
bell’d and hooded million tongued,
wind lulled wind whipped fragrant million eyed
ears of the earth –
Listen! it wakes again
There is no house only windows
walls are leaf thin
and the city as the bloomed skin
of an almost ripened fruit breaks open –
And if you died the Earth would waken you –
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